Was going to try and write you all individually but time is not on my side at the moment. Just want to thank all my friends on here for your encouragment support laughs tears and the odd threat in the past year. May 2010 bring you all comfort joy happiness that you deserve.
I will be back some time in January on a permanent basis so til then....raise a glass do a wee ching ching and have an awesome night no matter what your doing.
Im watching Jools Holland with a botle of beer a cheeky smoke then pack my cases to go home.
Hi peeps trying to do a quick catch up but you have all been so busy i think i may be here til next new yesr's eve.
Christmas was fab CB got spoiled rotten and we just had a ball the whole day.
I was kinda planning on running away after a huge family barney but decided to grit my teeth and get on with it, i have in the process hurt a few peeps but no matter what i done someone was going to get peeved at me so in the end i done what i wanted to do and just now i'm sat in Madchesta with my jim jams on deciding wether or not to head up to liverpool.
Anyway peeps i shall be leaving random comments on your posts.
Thanks for all the little messages whilst my tinternet has been down, hope you all had a fab christmas and that your stockings got filled with nice things, if noty i hope you enjoyed the boxing day hangover..i know i did
Ok for all that know me, i like m music so jumping on the bandwagon i will be downloading this fantabulous tune on monday so that whoever wins that stupid manufactured programme do not once again take over the chrstmas number one, i beg you all to do the same, last year was a catastropie (or how ever its spelt) with a decent tune being turned into what can only be described as a horrific waste. Please please please get Rage to number one.
Tree is up, putting the decorations up is'nt an hours work, there's furniture to move, curtains to change ornaments to be put away cusion covers changed a few sweary words when you cant find the purple sticker on a branch and all sorts of other poop but it is done and the living room looks as inviting as a grotto but i wont be charging people a fiver to enter.
Presents are wrapped, stocking checked that there's enough ickle things to fill it.
Thought i was getting a semi bargain buying the ex MIL a digital photo frame but no i have since discovered it's not a case of uploading stuff onto it you need a memory card, it no doubt says that somewhere on the box but i was more concerned about buying food by the time i had got my head round the fact i had to go out in the cold and fog.
Just to let you all no i'm planning on being drunk in roughly an hour so if i should post more you know why
I got a really god discount on this phone, i thought part of the discount was because i was upgrading and i have been with the same provider for 10 years same number etc that i was just getting my loyal customer thingy, i have just checked my balance and it was over 27 quid, only had a pound in it this morning. With O2 you can either take the discount on the phone or get credit so i'm wondering if the guy in the carphone warehouse gave me the discount because he recognised me on that silly site my mate put me on. Shant complain i can now download a few new games.
Got a wee cheque from tax credits so will hold onto that til next week before putting it in my account, thats at least the entrance fee to the carnival paid for and lunch whilst we are there, i hope they have new rides this year, a rollercoaster would be good bt the secc is'nt big enough for that.
Remember a while back i was telling you about the lone parent group? well we had a few sessions and it was poorly attended, on the first week (last 3 sessions) we just had a general tip swapping and how to get things for free and about minor ailment clinics....infact whilst on that subject did you all know that you can register at a chemist and instead of having to pay for kids medicine like calpol headlice remover etc you can get it free through them). Week 2 we had got a woman in from welfare rights to explain how the system is changing how it wil effect parents and all about ttax creds consumer rights. Week 3 we done basic arts and crafts that you can do with kids. Since most courses etc are finishing this week we decided to start a fresh after the new year, advertise it more by letting health visitors know about it so they can tell new lone mums/dads about it and put an ad in the local rag. We need at least 12 peeps to attend before the funding officer will even entertain giving us money so we can get people in about various things.
On all the evaluation sheets i fill in when finishing various bits and bobs i always put down that i would like to learn how to basket weave (dont tell BDA she might change her mind on the pottery thing lol) the woman who is the CLD officer for my area has looked into it and its going to cost 250 a session, no enough pennys in the pot for that, so if anyone knows anyone who can show us a demo get in touch, remember i'm in the Glasgow postcode area.
Supposed to be putting up the tree tonight as CB is away this weekend but the livingroom is once again a tip, the thing i can never get over is the fact CB takes her socks off and the end up under the t.v unit and then i get moaned at every morning that shes no clean socks in her drawer.
Suppose i should go and square the place up for the tree before she gets back from dance and drame club
The only time it's acceptable to text someone during the night is when it does'nt wake me up, this phone of mine is great i use it as my alarm clock so it's never far from reach, the old phone would wake me with msg's but not this one it's fab. When i woke up this morning i had a msg from the boytoy "HIYA HUN (i'm a tim) SRY 4 TXIN SO L8 AM IN EAST KILBRIDE TOTALLY LOST UR T ONLY PERSON I COULD THINK 2 TX" i don't no E/K it's worse than were i live for roundabouts and estates being far away from each other. I wonder if he found his wa back to whoevers house he was at or if he walked to edinbrger or he could have simply froze to death in the cold night (dont want his eyes so his death doesnt bother me)
I'm getting a tad over worried re this eye thingy, (just posted a question on A&A) i was reading about it earlier and as thick as i am i really did'nt think for one minute i would have to wait for someone to pass away before they could get another cornea. Now this got me to thinking in a a way only a trip to the moon could justify it....when people have transplants they often feel as if they have a part of the person within them, i wonder if i will see through there eyes, i know what your all thinking just now and perhaps i am not explaining this the right way. What if the person suffered a terrible harrowing wes craven type death, will i see it...no of course i bloody wont but it does get me thinking. I obviously have more than enough time on my hands for these bleak thoughts to be troubleing me.
On another subject, i took CB back to a shoe shop this afternoon as the shoes i bought her on sunday have fell apart, well one did. They phoned head office and everything, the woman reacons i must have cleaned them with something, she obviously doesnt know me well enough to think i spend my time cleaning new shoes. Finally she caved in and exchanged them for a different pair, me talking rather loudly and saying to CB if they dont change them then were sitting down on the floor til the police arrive. A bit ott i agree but it's been a twat of a day and hell hath no fury and all that jazz.
Suposed to be helping out at the school disco just now but instead i told CB i wa'nt going so she could have a fab time without me standing over her plus i feel i really needed a few valium and a wee cheeky toke i mean smoke.
Tax credit people have ballsed up yet again, i appealed a decidion they had made re an over payment, will get all the money i have paid back so far plus an extra few bob for last years tax claim and it wil be in my account for the 23rd, being honest it isnt a great deal of money, but it will pay towards our annual christmas eve day out.
In another strange way i thought the decision with the ex to remain ex's would'nt bother me but i have been such a groch today i reacon it has, ws telling my young cous about it and how we had a good time on Friday night, ickle cous being the sensible one out the two of us reminded me of the times i snottered over his shoulder with various problems we were having. I'm not a great believer in that you represent your star sign but he's a Taurus, go in head first want to know whats what, where i am a laid back don't really care how it happened virgo, i'm sure i was either early or late as i am also meant to be house proud and have a place for everything (yeah it's in that blod cupboard that i can open now but still can't get right into it)
And now i'm just doing random mumbling but you see the house is so quiet at the mo, no child no t.v on and no music so i have to make noise somewhere and tapping on the lappy is it...ok ok i'm going before i bore you all to death (but if you should die, are your eyes healthy? do you smoke? and are you blood type o- i might want one of your corneas)
I don't enjoy going for my ee examinations, so i llet CB sit in the chair first, she's now went from only needing her gregorys to needing them all the time. The optition put drops in her eyes...no wait thats wrong the optition restrained her so the drops could get put in. Then i took the hot seat, no it was'nt hot because CB had wee'd herself whilst struggling with the forces of nature. I sat i squirmed i wriggled about, you see (more than me) i have conical corneas, have done since i was a dafty and buzzed some gas when i was a teenager causing the cornea to blow out, i have to go and get seen by a specialist and then a wee op, there going to give me a new cornea, just one, my left eye is so far gone they can't fix it so its erm eye right.
On a brighter note was out for lunch with a mate, food was dried out but i was hungry so i did'nt do my usual take this back and bring me fresh, then we had a wander round the shops.
All my little courses are now finished for christmas holibobs so hopefully i can finally get into that cupboard that has been the bain of my life for weeks now.
And on an even happier note, it has been decided that i would be better off staying single. Now i'm not sure if i should have dropped my knickers at the weekend....well if i had then at least i could say i had my knookie at least once in 2009
Well it was my mates couch first around 6 ish, i was goosed. He woke me up because i was singing in my sleep. Yes peeps i'm a sleep walker talker and singer. Felt a tad but i was'nt dribbling drool down my chin so that made me feel better. Dragged my arse home and got comfy on the beanbag, CB woke me p about 8ish and told me to go to bed, i said i was going up in a bit, woke up and she had turned everything off (including the heating) she had brought a sleeping bag down ad crashed on the couch so that left me with either the chair or the floor, took the cusions off the chair and ade a we bed up.
I'm only in my early 30's, i should be able to do a late friday and then be ready for a night of saturday action but since becoming a mammy and having responsibility my body wont allow it.
CB has a christmas party thing today so i'm going window shopping, so skint this weekend but have everybodys presents in apart from my mums OH, was thinking of getting him the new Billy Connely dvd. I'm sure CB has hit out with a few new wish list things but i have went over my budget with her and being honest she gets loads from santa bits n bobs from me a wad of stuff from her dad and his family and my mum always makes up huge bags too. Then there's m 2 uncles who always give her at leats a ton each so i think shes on to plums with anything else.
Can't believe my hangover lasted all day yesterday, i only had ...er yeah ok now thinking back i should still be paraletic. Must remember i am 5'1 and not meant to be drinking big huge burly guys under the table.
Oops i done it again, had the chance of a bit of how's your father and as i was so pist i turned round and said do you mind if i fall asleep before i either pass out or be sick. Yes last night was feckin great, 2 fab support bands then Electric Six, i had forgot how funny the guy was with his one liners between tunes, i created my own little mosh pit away from the main one as i often loose stuff bouncing about or get broken ribs from peeps banging into me. One person i was really peased to bump into was my ex, you know the one the love of my little life, the one who tore my heart out and made me cry to everyone and anyone who would listen. Ended up going to the pub with him after the gig, and erm chipped in for a taxi back to mine.
I so want to go back there, i just plain and simply love him. In the 2 years since we split i realised why we did and how past relationships had made me push him away, i could never understand why this generous gorgeous man cared for me loved me and wanted to be with me and expect nothing in return except mutual respect. Like i said it took me 2 years to sus it all out. Now here's the tricky part, he's seeing another girl, nothing serious but he's stil in a relationship and cheating is'nt nice and i wont stand for it and his morals wont alow him to do that to her either.
CB came home earlier than expected and i never told her he was in my bedroom, she found him whilst looking for a hair brush even though i was standing gaurd at the foot of the stairs so she could'nt climb them, She wants us back together, she also misses and loves him to bits.
I don't want anyone hurt so thats the reason i did'nt drag him upstairs as soon as we got in, we talked til the early hours drinking the remains of the beer stock then went to bed and just cuddled til we fell asleep, it wsa magical waking up with our body entwined, it just felt so right that he was here again. I did say to him if he woke in the morning and thought shit i would'nt hold it against him to slip out the door, he did'nt i cried he cried not sad tears just emotional ones. I really hope i don't make a wrong decision here but my heart is pulling me towards him and my head is saying go for it. He's put my name on the guest list for tonight to see the band he's in but i doubt i'll go, apart from the fact i'm totally rooked from last night i think slow and steady might be the course of action to go down
..Tis a tad cold in the litte nest, oh please please please Mr housing dude will you please install central heating or at least rig my lecky meter so i'm not having to put in at least 7 quid a day.
Was going to say groan over but you know me i like a good moan and groan, shame it is'nt through the throws of passion with some hot guy who i can take fl advantage over...infact scrap that one i seem to have lost all my sex drive i mean ff's i fell asleep last week whilst someone was wanting there wicked way.
So i've been on the back burner all week was full of promises of how i would still keep up with you all etc but tbh i think this is the first time the lapp has been on apart to do a ful defrag and disc clean up, oh well at least this is clean now nlike the cupboard in the hall that i still can't prise open. So here's my week so far
MONDAY, i slept all day and wnt to see the wee chap at night, going to take a half step back on that one, he's went from screaming everytime i walk in the room to laughing and now i'm mummy
TUESDAY, gutted the lliving room and wrapped up christmas presents that are now hidden away again.
WEDNESDAY, made christmas decorations then went and done my vol work up at the kids club then went and seen the wee chap, i actuall went yp as i had asked Rab to record me something on sky and i wanted to see it before the second part came on.
THURSDAY, now this is a tad sad, a friend was burying her baby, little girl who was still born, i don't do kidies funerals but sent a card and flowers (will do another post on this one later). Met my mums OH who told me she was lunching with the girls so i went in search for her and found her, had a natter with them over a coffee then i finished getting all CB's christmas in. Up seeing the wee fella last night.
TODAY, not sure what today holds yet apart from going up the school as CB is doing a stall at the bring and buy sale, reminded her as she was walking out the door that we are trying to get rid of crap not bringing more in.
So thats been it really, m plans to gut the house has resulted n only the livingroom being done, there's still an empty sweet packet in the bathroom from the other day that i am refusing to pick up.
Oh yeah tonight, its the annual last gig of the year, Electric 6 at the ABC, CB informed me last night that her dad had phoned her and surprise surprise he does'nt know if he can take her this weekend, I had already asked a few peeps if i could fall back on them to watch her if he let us down so at least i can still go out.
Going to become one this week, feel like i have'nt alot to say just now so just going to be nosey into all your lifes, plus my house needs gutted top to bottom, upstairs landing is like an obstacle course and the downstairs cupboard door can't even be opened due to a box falling the other day and blocking the damn thing plus i ain't seeing the new year in with one dirty skirting board