I don't know if i'm in the right or wrong here and frankly my dear i don't give a fuck. CB's dad phoned earlier he was supposed to be picking her up at 4.30, he phoned me to tell me he would be late, i reminded him that he still has to take her next weekend as this is'nt his weekend (his decision not mine) he told me no he wsa only taking her this weekend to do her a favour. A favour for what i asked, apparently (according to him) last night i done nothing but moan at her..if i remember rightly last night she got a fab report from her teachers so i got her a wee treat from the shop, not much just a bar of chocolate but a treat all the same. I sang her praises to anyone who looked at the text msg i sent to family and even let her watch a dvd i have been saying no to for months.
She came in just as i had hung up the phone, i asked her about it and she said no she had'nt said that, it was her dad that asked if she wanted to come through this weekend. So just now she's snibed until i find out which one is telling me porkys.
What i'm bealing about is the fact he's doing her a favour, he's her dad he should want to see her out of love. I'm fed up with his lies, this past year has been a nightmare with him to the point i was ready to leave my little nest and run away to somewhere he would never find us. Last month he gave her a newspaper to read, well an article in a newspaper about one of her cousins who if truth be told is a bit of a gangster and i went potty, i listened to his mum for 6 friggin days belittle me tell me everything that is being said about me and i sat and took it.
Ok i know myself and i admited it to a friend the other day that lately i have been a complete cow with certain peeps, i have been loosing my temper and telling a few peeps exactly what i'm thinking and it aint been pretty, but never once has my attitude changed with CB, i would and will do anything for her, she's my only child but i can't take anymore of her dads shit, it's dragging me down, he dragged me down when we were together to the point i ended up in hospital after trying to commit sideyways, the scars remind me of how lucky i was to get out when i did and since we parted i have accehived so much that i can't allow him to destroy it and i cannot allow him to destroy m daughter.
I was going to apologise for going off on a tangent but know what, i feel better all ready