This time last year boytoy got down on one knee and proposed, well i never gave him the chance i told him to get up and stop making a twat of me, The people in the street around us were more disapointed i did'nt say yes than i was. Next morning he asked me to move in with him, again i said no. I wonder where or what i would be doing now if i had said yes. Thinking on it, i've been married and it was'nt a happy one, the whole thing took longer to organise than the actual marrige lasted..yip married in March wanted a divorce in the October. I wonder what would have happened if we had'nt parted. Then there's C.B'S dad, lived with him or he lived with me for 4 years, now if he had got his act together i wonder what i would be doing now. Seems for my 33 years i have been in a few serious relationships where it does'nt go anywhere. Then there was J, i'm glad we did'nt get that mortgage now. I wonder how many more relationships i will have before i find a soulmate or if indeed i ever do.
I'm not going all i want a b/f on you so don't worry and if truth be told i don't know if little miss independant here could handle a proper relationship. In the past few years i have seen good friends split up and divorce who i thought were solid, that saying you never know what goes on behind closed doors is so true.
C.B's dad has been trying to reach her all afternoon, i can't even speak to the wimp so i just keep hitting reject, i wonder how long it wil take before i can have a civil conversaton with im or even if i want to have one with him. Out of all my past relationships he's the only one who i have to have a contact number for, I wonder if that 41 bus that drives down his street will ever crash into him.
I wonder if asda has any of there black roses left, i have black roses already in my kitchen but the emo chick in me loves me. I wonder if tomorrow it will be raining, i woNder if on thursday it might be better to get the train rather than my mum driving us in. I wonder if i can be annoyed to pull the sewing machine out and fix her school trousers tonight. Lots of things to wonder about