Got told today that one of my jobs no longer required my services but to be honest im not sure i care any more,im currently handing in sicklines because the dreaded clinical depression has set in yet again,this is becoming to be a bit of a habit at this time of year.On a kind a plus note boytoy got down on one knee on saturday night,we had met at a charlatans gig last year and went to see them on saturday as it was a year since we met,suppose it was kind of romantic of him doing it infront of our friends and dozens of random people,although i did tell him that he better be getting down to tie a shoe lace and then bam he popped the question,ive been considering binning him and then a few weeks ago i realised that i couldnt because no matter what i did have extraordinary feelings for him,im not sure how gutted he was when i said no but he told every passer by how i had knocked him back,when we got home he asked if i would consider moving in with him.Not really sure what to do but i am tempted and now ive lost one of my jobs and im not happy at my other place of work oh and lots of other things that are giong on between my daughters father and me it seems like a good idea,the only thing i'd be loosing is my house really but if w edo it properly then i should still feel secure,ive spoke with my daughter about it and she thinks its a great idea,all the kids get on great with each other his kids think im the bee's knees as does mine about him,even my mum thinks its a great idea and could really be the making of me.The only thing holding me back is knowing im in a vulnerable position at the moment because of looosing a job and being back on anti depressants.
Still cant believe he got down on one knee though,maybe i shouldve said yes!!!!